you do not go unnoticed by me

What a weird and strange place this world is for many. Trying to find bits of happiness amongst the rubble of what has become of life is exhausting and I'm certain at some point not be worth the effort. Here's to those who face the rest of your lives alone with only memories to keep you from freezing to death. 

To those who have no conversations outside your thoughts and to those who have only windows to the outside to see what life used to be, here's to you and the courageous bravery it takes to just get up out of bed. 

For the many who have no families to be with especially this time of year, I see you, hear you, and recognize your grief and despair. It's real and you are not the only one. When you are faced with looking at photos and writings of those blessed with having all that you have not, I feel your pain and longing for that which has passed and the absence of even the slightest acknowledgement of those with only their sadness to keep them company while so many rejoice.   

Time is the magic for some but the curse for others and you know who you are. You are not alone in your despair for many are here and the open arms of acknowledgement of your suffering and loneliness are for you. 

Looking forward to another day is a blessing if you can manage it and when that effort becomes too hard know that you are not the only one. Reach out if you can, fight the urge to give up and walk alone if you have to just walk and try to remember that no one who has ever had meaning to your life would be OK with your suffering. Prayer, faith, and courage can help lift your head up when it wants to look down. Get outside if you can and walk just keep walking and if you're unable to get outside go out there in your mind and just keep moving if only in your head. 

God did not put a single one of us here to suffer so. We are not meant to rust and corrode with sadness. Any life that we have is a blessing and wasting it with chronic despair is unthinkable. We are alone and that is OK. Some are lonely and it's understandable. You are not going to be overlooked by me and I feel your every pain. 

There are many here in the same place you are with the simple goal of just wanting to wake up tomorrow and maybe not be sad. Keep it simple and just wake up and feel blessed that you did. Do something besides sit if you can. Overlook the "Happy Thanksgiving," and the upcoming "Merry Christmas," stuff that people toss around because they don't know your circumstance. Most people aren't able or willing to look beyond themselves long enough to realize those words don't make sense to so many who are suffering alone. 

Just keep moving. Move your mind if your body cannot and listen to the memories of those who have passed before you who would not want you to suffer so. Lean on whoever and whatever you need to and just keep moving.